Please Die <3

I hate the world again. God how I missed it.

:D also: getting rid of this journal. Pssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

You know, I have a lot of time at work to just sit and read magizines, and after I get my fill of celebrity gossip (only to relize it's the same shit every week) I pick up things like Time, or the Rolling Stone, or News Week... then I get home, get onto the internet and find obscure articles to read.

Something I've realized, that everyone already knows, and I already know but I'm about to put emphasis on it. Our country is fucked up. Like seriously fucked up.

And it's not that I haven't known this before but I just haven't written about it, but lately it's becoming more and more apparent. And with most people it's like being princesses that live high up in a tower, waiting for their prince to come... only when the prince does come she notices he's not as sweet as he seemed from the distance, and the grass she longed to walk on is growing from bloody soil, and when she turns once her once her feet are on the ground she finds that the tower she was in is made of the bones of people that built it for her.

Why would she even want to leave that tower in the first place?

I wonder if, when historians look back on the United States (or at least the last 8 years) and write in their books on what an embarrassment it was. I wonder if the younger generations will look upon us like we did Russia during the cold war, or Germany and Japan during WWII, or if they'll see Bush like Fidel Castro. (Or worse when it finally gets out to the public all the things he really did.)

I want to think Obama can fix it, but in truth it's like someone took a toy, smashed it into hundreds of pieces and gave it to a rookie toymaker to repair with nothing but rubber bands and spit. I want to believe that our new President is fucking MacGuyver then...

Look I still update this thing!


True statement: My life is a boring one. here's an update of what's happened in the last few months to a year.


I has a house now, I share it.. but it's a house. This house came with a roommate and a dog that I want to throw out the window.

I tried to quit my job at CVS, but they wouldn't let me. So I cut my hours to shit and pee'd on their building. That last part didn't really happen.

I got a new job waiting tables at a Pizza place next door to the bar I work at. This requires me to get up at 9 in the morning. We'll see how long it takes for the sunlight to kill me.

I keep trying to ask out this guy that I could possibly like but mostly just get along with. Everytime I almost do I change the subject. He needs to grow some balls and ask me out first because I notice when he 'almost does' he changes the subject too.

I'm an angrier person this year than I was last year. Maybe it's just getting older. By the time I'm thirty my rage will destroy the world.

the end.

Ryan Reynolds is cast to play Deadpool in the next X-men movie.


.... I'm so excited i could pee myself. How ever it's going to introduce thousands of none-comic fans to the character. And that may make me die a little bit inside.

Who all here remembers when being a part of a fandom was fun? Back before all it was was drama and gang wars about who has the better pairing, or who the best character was? and the bashing bashing bashing, and the OMG, KAWAII, >^_^< or what ever the fuck all these fourteen year old white American "I wish I was Japanese." girls do. And when every single person wasn't a huge hypocrite?

Like, remember when fandom was more for adults? when stories and art were good and god damn if things were a little bit organized. Am I just old?


Also. Hound and I are starting a motorcycle gang. Who's in? (motorcycles not require)

xD so I went from having no jobs, to having three jobs in the span of a week and a half. That's mad multitasking skillz right there my brothas!

I felt the need to journal about it, because now that my free time is an exciting luxury rather than ... my entire life. which means I might start doing stuff like drawing and posting more actually now that I feel I can't put it off.

I WOULD PUT OFF FOREVER IF I THOUGHT I COULD GET AWAY WITH IT. I'd be the laziest Highlander ever.


... the inside of my mouth tastes like the bottom of a little girl's purse. All pennies, pez and plastic. blargh D:

Look Television. I didn't want to have to have this talk with you, but you're just getting lazy around Christmas time, I mean really. Every year it's the same programming, in the same order with... I'm starting to think the same commercials.

Now I know this whole Christmas thing only happens once a year, and you think "hey it's been a year, they must have forgotten." We didn't, television, we didn't forget your Christmas Story, The Santa Clause, Rudolph, Rocky III line up from last year. And we're getting a little stick of it. OH and I see what you did there with your sneaking in those Harry Potter marathons, and I'll agree, there's nothing that gets me into the Christmas spirit more than watching little godless heathens run around casting Satan's magic at giant snakes and talking spiders mean while being lead by an Old Queen. Brings tears to my eyes. ... But how about some new programing? I mean, Scifi channel can at least turn out a decent original movie or two; How about Zombie Clause, or the Revenge of Frosty XVIII.

And what about you, the Muppets!? Can't you give us another Christmas movie? I mean you've already ripped off Improved on "It's a wonderful Life." and "A Christmas Carol." Oh I KNOW! Harry Potter is a Christmasy tale isn't it? How about some Kermit Potter! I bet the fangirls would go wild for Snape played by Sam the Eagle.

... at least I get the holiday hawk commercial back.

See, I never update so you all get the cliff-note version.

Ahem. Nothing really changes. I quit my job, I got a new one... I left that job and went back to the old one. I still make no money and spend all of my free time either playing video games, roleplaying or drinking.

I wrecked my car, never bothered to get a new one. Helped 434980384 move, all my friends are getting married or pregnet. Raziel passed away and I consoled myself with an entire batch of chocolate chip cookies. I draw less, never get any better at it but that's OKAY. I keep thinking about going back to school but never really do. Still don't want a relationship really but I think about that too sometimes, decided people are too much work.

Relized that my speaking problem is something called Cluttering, rather than me being a damn retard, so I'm cool with that... still get to make up fake words.

Got a dog, he's huge and follows me around with his bowl.

I feel older but refuse to consider myself a real adult. I'd probably die out in the real world.

The end. Now lets see if I can't keep this damn thing updated from time to time.

-headdesk-

I mean, I'm a drinker. BUT HOLY CRAP! Never NEVER play quarters with a pro twice your size. They'll
a) beat you hands down every time.
b) never get drunk.
c) Make you kiss the bartender.

I ended up vomiting vodka and pretzles in my friends car. yeah I know, fuckin sexy right?

Also: using dial up AFTER having cable for years makes you want to kill yourself. Seriously, there's no way.

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

× I miss somebody right now.  (I don't like people)	✓ I don't watch much TV these days.  (That is I don't watch ENOUGH TV)	✓ I own lots of books.  (Own them yes, read them...? Not so much, but they do fill in my book shelf nicely)
× I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.  (Not so much love to play videogames... but Hate to do anything else but.)	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.  (Who hasn't? Really....)	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.  (I don't believe in relationships)	× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (Not if it gets you killed.)
✓ I curse sometimes.  (I curse ALL the time)	× I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.  (I do have a fancy knife, but I don't carry it with me... just stab people with it.)

( it goes on... )

Ya think I'd remember stuff, like the fact that we have a Samhain ritual and shindig tonight.

SLIPPED MY MIND! With any luck it'll be awesome, I'll get drunk and not freeze my ass off tonight. (fuckin fall thinking it's winter or something) I hate the Midwest, but at least I don't live up north will all the cold most of the time.

.. note, never try to explain to your grandparents the origin of most holidays, they're easily scandalized and nine times out of ten they won't believe you that anything existed before the Christian church.

... So what's up with like, every horror movie ever having the EXACT SAME PLOT? For serious! You have five some kids, stuck in some house/island/mall/building, with some unknown monster that they either wronged/stumbledacross/woke/released. And there's always the black guy/girl (who dies first) the couple who have sex every chance they get even though there's like... monsters. The kid that does nothing but drugs, and the psychic/religions/wicca chick who knows what's going on but no one will listen to them because they're FUCKING CRAZY TO BELIEVE IN THIS SHIT. And the hero, who is just like everyone else, and you don't know they're the hero until they're the last person left that ends up either escaping or killing the monster.

Also, pointless nudity. WHY? Better question, why the screechy violin music, that only gets faster and louder as the scene goes on until it can't get any faster or LOUDER so you know something's going to jump out. Really, stop giving it away. They need to play something like Billy Joel and when you're like " Hey I know this song" and are in the middle of lip synching 'We didn't start the fire' zombies come out and rip people apart. OUT OF FUCKING NOWHERE, like they're just walking on the beach in the middle of the day, and there are people around and they just SWARM out of the water.

... They need me to write their movies for them. Fucking Hollywood.

... I like how I never write about anything. Oh sure, stuff happens.

But do I update? Nooo..


GET A JOB!

I don't like Austraila, they're all fake and backwards...

You hear that Australia, you suck.


.. I still like New Zealand.